When James returned, he seemed preoccupied. A number of the others suggested he was still dealing with the loss of a family member. I knew different. He was simply paranoid that someone (mainly Me) has discovered his little secret. He did seem especially funny towards me –assessing my reaction to him, looking at me after he made a joke, etc. I tried my best to act normally but knowing what I did about how he fantasized about me made it hard.
There he was trying his best not to look directly at me and I was trying hard to catch him checking me out. Not sure why,,, maybe I wanted to let him know it was okay,,, or maybe I just needed to know he still wanted me. Continue reading